(First of all: Sorry for not being active on Tumblr anymore. I still follow the royals, but I don’t post about it anymore.This is super OT!)
Since a couple of years I question a lot about myself. I did not earlier because I had so many other problems, that my gender/sexuality was not really important. As in getting my Autism diagnosis, ect…
Now I kinda want to put a label on my gender and my sexuality but I’m clueless. I feel so weird. Here are the facts:
Gender:
I’m biological female and I have no problems with that whatsoever. But I feel kind of neutral. I can’t say that I feel like I woman, I don’t. But I also don’t feel like a men. I tick the “female” box in questionnaires without a doubt, because that is what I am body wise.
Sexuality:
I’m attracted by the female body, but I can’t stand most women and the thought of having one as a girlfriend is kind of horrible.
I’m not at all attracted by a male body, but I love male minds and my friends are male too. I don’t mind having sex with a male person.
So if I could bake myself a partner he would be male with a female body.
So, what is wrong with me? (Please don’t take it to seriously. I’m happy being single right now and I don’t lay awake at night crying about that situation. I’m just clueless.)
I feel like I spend the whole night drinking. I had no alcohol at all, but it feels exactly like that. Slowly I’m too old for staying up all night. Not sure if I do it again for the closing ceremony. Wasn’t that great, but that was clear beforehand. With a smaller budget you can’t put on a great show. I almost fell asleep during the Salsa part. I expected a bit more boom boom bang music you know like in London during the parade of the athletes.
me, the curtain lifting, the fog clearing, comprehension dawning, the realization hitting me directly in the face as a montage of the past few days goes through my head:
Ah
